August 12, 2009
Lately Dustin and I talk about things in relation to where we were 6 months ago. A lot has changed in the last 6 months. A lot. We moved, Dustin started a new job, we moved again and we’ve realized dreams… more than once. 6 months ago we couldnt have imagined where we would be today, what we would be doing right now, that we could get here so quickly. Or maybe… the truth is, I couldn’t have. I’m pretty sure Dustin could have, that he did and that that is why we are here now. For me, the last 6 months have been a lesson in trust, in believing and in determination. A lesson I am still, stubbornly, trying to learn.
But that’s not what I want to talk about today. What I want to talk about today is that day 6 months ago. August 12. And why its that day that we measure from.
It was a Wednesday and it didn’t start out well. We were living at my parents house and I was up early getting ready for work and was very emotional. If you asked him Dustin would tell you that this is not unusual and yet it was in its intensity. There was small chance I could be pregnant, a tiny one… minuscule if you asked me. I was a couple days late but given my age and my birth control status I didn’t think it was at all likely. I chalked my emotion up to PMS but couldnt let go of the ‘what if’s’ and the ‘whens’. So I woke up Dustin and cried to him for an hour about what we would do, just in case. After that I was so late for work that I just called in sick.
I decided to take a pregnancy test. I drove to CVS with the feeling that I was definitely wasting my time and money but knowing that a negative result would at least allow me to move on I went anyway. 15 minutes later I watched as that 2nd blue line appeared, nice and dark, almost immediately.
When I showed Dustin he asked “Are you telling me we’re having a baby?”
I just nodded.
He put his arms around me and hugged me and he stayed like that for a long time. He didn’t say anything. He didn’t need to. I knew how he felt. He was happy, excited, confident and ready.
I was nervous, unsure and disbelieving. But standing there with him I started to feel better. I still didn’t know exactly what we were going to do or how we were going to to do it but I knew that somehow we would work it out together.
And we did.
We have 3 more months before we get to meet this little one and we can’t wait.
Jess says:
Beautiful post Julie! It made me get all teary eyed. I’m so glad that you shared this beautiful story and so, so happy that you are happy and have such a wonderful husband like Dustin. Wish we were there with you to share in your last few months of pregnancy and we will be very anxious to meet your little guy in a few months!
Anabell says:
Love it! I didn’t know the whole story. I’m so happy for you two and for the little one. You’ll be an awesome mom!
Love ya.
Charity Michel says:
Julie-I miss you!! Post some pictures of your cute pregant belly. I’m sure you are so adorable. I’m happy for you. Hey, send me your new address so Mark and I can send you an invitation. Have a great day!